Monday, November 10, 2014

A Season for Everything...

Hello, everyone!

Yes, I know. I haven't posted. Life has been crazy. And while I have thought of you all very often and miss you all very much, blogging has been put on the back burner.

Some really crazy awesome projects have happened, some of which I can't discuss yet...which leads to the post. Life has just gotten really insane, and after a lot of thought, I've realized that blogging is something that I need to officially let rest for a while. With said projects happening, I really would like to draw a line between public and private me. However, I don't want to lose all of you, so I've decided to make this blog private. I'm leaving this up for a week, and then it will be made private. If you would like to continue to be able to read it, please leave your email address in the comments (I won't publish them!) so I can add them.

And to wrap it up, here are two very awesome things that have happened over the summer/fall that have kept me so busy!

First, my brother Jon married my amazing sister-in-law, Ashley. The wedding was gorgeous and I am so happy to have such an amazing sister!

Second, I have the extreme privilege of playing Mary Bailey in Blue Springs City Theatre's upcoming production of It's a Wonderful Life the Musical! Rehearsals started in September and we are in the crazy crunch mode now, with the play only a few weeks away. The cast and crew are beyond amazing and the Lord has blessed me so much by giving me this incredible opportunity! It has consumed my entire life right now :), but I am finally doing what I've always wanted to do, and I've never been happier.

So! I've missed you all tons. Please leave your email, and let me know what you've been up to!

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Amy's Visit!!!!!

Helloooooo!  This is Amy-- Ally made me start this.  Here we sit on her sofa giggling, which is pretty typical for what the week has been so far.  (I'm writing everything in blue and she's in pink.  Just so ya know.)

Where do we start to describe the epicness of this week? We've been talking all day long. Most of the time in Martha Mahinsky voices. Because that's the way, uh-huh, uh-huh, we like it, uh-huh, uh-huh.

Seriously, this has been awesome.  Very relaxed and hilarious and super perf adorbs for realsies because we are Martha Mahinsky, and if you don't know who Martha is, watch this.  You know, they say a picture's worth a thousand words... should we show them a picture?

Sure. Pictures in posts about a week together is usually a good idea. That's what people DO, you know.


Okay, here's a picture.  We've been quoting Moriarty pretty much constantly, too.  And then we switch back to Martha.  Sorry boys, we're SOOOOOOO changeable!

Where to start? Amy got in Tuesday, and we hung out that evening and then completely freaked her out with the first episode of Sherlock. In a good way. :D Wednesday we talked about deep, deep things for several hours first thing that morning (first deep conversation of many that day), adopted our Martha voices (and fangirled a bit over a guy who Martha calls Aaron Tater Tot), and worked on top-secret project that will not be revealed to the public just yet.

Amy, Belle and Ally

Ally's sister Belle, by the way, has been our confederate in the Martha-ing.  And in a lot of other things as well.  Like Sherlock fangirling and seeing Frozen at the theatre (my first time!) in which Kristoff completely stole our hearts.  <3 font="">

Wednesday night we introduced Amy to one of our favorite games, Seven-Up, watched The Blind Banker, and then saw Austenland, which we had just bought on DVD. I thought it was adorable, personally. JJ Feild, people, yes, yes.

Belle with Tom Hiddleston :P

And we agreed that he and Tom Hiddleston look enough alike to play Sydney Carton and Charles Darnay in A Tale of Two Cities.  Dream cast, folks.  Oh, and take a look at this picture that Belle drew of Tom Hiddleston... how cool is THAT.  She's incredibly talented.

Thursday we worked on the guest posts for the A Tale of Two Cities blog party on Eva-Joy's blog (CHECK IT OUT!!!). That evening the upstairs shower messed up and water leaked through the kitchen ceiling. Not an uncommon occurrence, but ya know. Thursday night was The Great Game evening, and Moriarty thoroughly spooked us. In that awesome he-is-such-a-cute-psycho-we-love-him-but-gosh-he-is-so-creepy way. Which leads to the events of that night.

Duhn-duhn-duhn.  We were awakened in the pitch black of the night by a thunderous crash that shook the whole bedroom-- being the phans that we are, we immediately assumed it was a falling chandelier.  No, actually, our first thought was bombs and Moriarty, if indeed we thought at all, since we were too busy screaming our half-asleep heads off.  Turns out Ally's jewelry board had fallen down from the wall, taking a shelf with it, and though nothing was broken it made quite a lot of noise.  We were both fine, of course, and it was a funny story in the morning.

She screamed first. I heard her and thought, "Someone is screaming. I must scream, too." :P Friday was VALENTINE'S DAY, and it was our day-out-in-KC with Belle and my brothers Nick and Alex. We went to Crown Center to eat at Fritz's, a restaurant where trains deliver your food. Tradition to take visitors there. So if you ever come to visit the Rovirosas, prepare to go to Fritz's. ;) It's tradition for Nick to order our meals at Fritz's with an accent (you order over a phone at your booth), and when he did an impersonation of Benedict Cumberbatch, we were amazed at how quickly we got our order. Amazing what power a British accent has.

In our conductor hats at Fritz's

Being ridiculously silly in KC was so much fun-- taking goofy Reichenbach-esque pictures along the edge of a railing in Crown Center, counting the coins in the waterfall, remarking on the fact that we were the only "young people" in Fritz's, as everyone else was either a small child or a parent-- we stuck out like sore thumbs in hats that were too small.  :P  As we were leaving the Union Station parking lot, Nick was getting ready to pay for the parking and there was no attendant there, so Belle suggested we just run for it without paying "since know one would know", and we had to reprove her. "God would know... and Sherlock would, too!"  But we must excuse her for this flagrant dishonesty, as she is only a child.  (Sorry, inside joke.  :P)

"Goodbye, John..." yes, we make light of tragedy :P

After eating we went to the Country Club Plaza (where we were afraid of being murdered in a parking garage - waaaay too much Sherlock) and saw Frozen at the theater there. Our second time seeing it, Amy's first. Absolutely adorable, of course. I fangirled through "Let it Go" like I do every time, and Amy was desperately in love with Kristoff (ok, so was I, how can we help it?!). OHMYGOSHSOGOODILOVEFROZENSOMUCH!!!!!! Anyway. Then we played another game of Seven-Up on the way home ("Why can't they just let it go?" "Because that's what people DO!"), went home and had tacos and amazing guacamole compliments of my dad. And thennnnn...came Amy's Most Emotionally Traumatizing Valentine's Evening Ever.

I'll say... first we watched the Hounds of Baskerville, which while not tearjerking is totally suspenseful and sad and scary and all that (also awesome) and then Somewhere in Time, through which we all cried buckets, and then the Reichenbach Fall, and... well, Ally says it was extremely emotionally satisfying to see me bawling like that.  I suppose she didn't know I cared.

The look on your face!!! :P Anyway, yes. It was very emotionally satisfying to see her bawling. I enjoyed having someone who actually enjoyed Somewhere in Time for once and didn't hate it by the time the movie was over. A bit of a let-down when you're showing people your favorite movie and, ya know, they don't like it. But what can we say...sad is happy for deep people. :) And then of course Reichenbach was delicious. All the Sherlock feels.

Ally, Emma, Joey and Amy with a frog-face effect

You talk as if it was something to eat.  :P  On Saturday Mr. Rovirosa made a traditional Cuban dinner, which was sooooo good-- I'd never eaten plantains before and I'm in love.  We had way too much fun doing impressions of different singers-- you don't know what ridiculous is until you've heard Sarah Brightman and Julie Andrews do "Defying Gravity."  Heehee.  Fooled around a bit with her younger siblings and the webcam on my laptop, as shown above.  Annnnnnnd I was incredibly spoiled because I had to wait just one day (though it was an eternity of a day :P) to watch the beginning of Season 3 after seeing the end of Reichenbach.  I do appreciate it, believe me.  :D  We went to bed ostentatiously early that night but ended up staying awake until 4 on Sunday morning, talking so much.

Today Amy got to meet my church family! We had such an awesome time and had some really enlightening discussions as my church usually does. ;) All in all, this has been such a fabulous week and I am *so* thankful for the opportunity for Amy to come down. I've been so lucky to get to know her through blogging and she's just as awesome in person. Honestly, so thankful for her friendship!!! And she can't say anything because I have the last paragraph. :P So we have...basically a day and a half left, and we're planning on filling those days with tons and tons of stuff. :) Love all you guys, etc., etc.

The Two Marthas

P.S.  And a bonus little gift to you... something Silly we made...

Monday, December 30, 2013

New Year's Tag!

Sooooo my Christmas was incredibly chill and awesome. We had a white Christmas and had an absolutely amazing time. And nowwwwww...for my annual New Years Tag! This is the...third, I think?...year I've done this and it's an awesome recap-of-my-year thing. :D Traditioooooooon, tradition! 

What did you do in 2013 that you’d never done before?
Went to college. Got a job. Auditioned - several times and got called back once! Even though I didn't actually get cast, it was so amazing and something I'm planning on doing again this year. Dyed my hair red - and loved it. Made some adjustments in my personal and spiritual life as the Lord revealed that there was many, many areas in my life where I had made rules of my own that weren't in the Bible and what He wanted. Learned a lot about legalism and living a more balanced life. 

Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions, and will you make one this year?
I've pretty much given up on resolutions. :D

Did anyone close to you give birth?

YESSSSSS. My close friend Kate - whose wedding I was in last August - had an absolutely, positively adorable little girl, Isabelle. She's five months old now and seriously, the most adorable baby I have ever laid eyes on. Total baby model, peoples. I am desperately hoping to actually get to meet her soon! 

Did anyone close to you die?
We had some family friends who experienced loss this year. 

What countries/states did you visit?
Um...I think I pretty much stayed in the Missouri/Kansas area this year. Kinda nice. :D 

What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?
A driver's license. FINALLY. A role in a play. 

What date from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory?

November 1, 2013. The day my brother Jon took his girlfriend Ashley out in a rowboat on a lake, released floating lanterns, sang I See the Light, and asked her to marry him. It was so magical and perfect.

Did you move anywhere?
Yes. The Lord supplied a beautiful house for us. We love it to bits, and I have my own wee apartment in the basement now that I love. :)

What was the best month?

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Gosh...making it through another year! :P

What was your biggest failure?
Not being where I should be at this time. 

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Not really.

What was the best thing you bought?
Ummmmm....gosh. Oh, I got a Precious Moments Nativity that I had wanted for YEARS "for someday when I get married." Finally hit me over the head that I don't know when, if ever, that's going to happen, so I might as well enjoy it now, you know? :) 

Whose behavior merited celebration?
My brother got engaged!!!! 

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Lots of people, sigh. 

Where did most of your money go?

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
My brother getting engaged. Also auditions. And the Doctor Who 50th Anniversary special. ;)

What was the best concert you’ve been to this year?

I was so blessed to see a TON of theatre this year!!! I saw Les Miserables last December, then Carousel, Hairspray, Miss Saigon, Wicked, Beauty and the Beast, and A Christmas Carol. While A Christmas Carol was completely, totally magical as it always is every year, the very, very best performance was definitely Wicked. I have never, ever seen a more amazing performance. I was all ready obsessed with the musical, but actually seeing it live - twice - was the *most* incredible experience ever. If it's ever close to you, GO SEE IT. There is NOTHING in the world like seeing Elphaba rise up in the air belting out "Defying Gravity." Nothing.

What song/album will always remind you of 2013?

Defying Gravity and For Good from Wicked, and Let it Go from Frozen.

Compared to this time last year, are you:
1. happier or sadder?
2. thinner or fatter? *cough*.
3. richer or poorer? Well, personally probably richer, now that I have a job. As in I have a bit more money. Not actually rich. Haha. ;)

What do you wish you’d done more of?
Actually, I'm rather happy with how the year went, considering.

What do you wish you’d done less of?
Worried, because it doesn't help anything.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Oooh. Saw some really awesome musicals.

How did you spend Christmas?
With my family!

How are you spending New Year’s?
Nice and cozy with my family - junk food, multiplayer video games and perhaps an episode of Doctor Who or Sherlock or two.  

Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?
I didn't do an extensive amount of phone-chatting this year. Probably Amy. :)

What was the best book you read?
Gosh. I ended up really liking Gone with the Wind, in an odd way. Also loved The Great Gatsby. I kinda was in a "read all the classics" mode. :D

Did you fall in love in 2013?
Nope, and I'm quite happy with it. :)

What was your favorite TV show?

I saw Graceland, starring new obsession Aaron Tveit. Incredible show, but definitely not for younger viewers as there was some content. Also went through two seasons of Once Upon a Time in like, a week. Really need to catch up on Season three somehow (thank God for the internet :P). Love, love, love the show (there is some content in it as well, though, particularly season 1). Rumpelstiltskin/Gold. And Belle. And Rumpelstiltskin/Gold. Also I know spoilers for season 3 and I'm not happy. Nuff said. Also finally forayed into Matt Smith's Doctor, and completely fell in love with Eleven. Not in the same way as Ten - but he was amazing. Amy and Rory are epic. And I'm all ready heartbroken that's he's gone. I got Belle and Alex hooked on Doctor Who, and Nick watched some with us and then refused to see Matt Smith. When we all finally decided to see him...he ended up being his favorite Doctor. And now he's obsessed. Funny how that happens. ;)

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Hate is such a strong word. :-P

What did you want and get?
Um...a Keurig for Christmas. Also my own mini-apartment. :)

What did you want and not get?
The role I auditioned for. But that's okay. 

What were your favourite films of this year?
Les Miserables. Epic of all epicness. Completely fulfilled everything I wanted. The end.
Man of Steel. Mmmm yes.
The Great Gatsby. So incredible. So sad. Such a deep story.
My Big Fat Greek Wedding. FINALLY saw it. It's so awesome. Love.
Bride Wars. Made me cry. Buckets.
The Decoy Bride. David Tennant. The end.
Even though it's not technically a film, we got to see The Day of the Doctor in theater. I'd never been to any kind of big premiere or anything - any time I've been to the theater it's almost completely empty and no one really cares that they're there - so to be in a room with 300+ other Whovians, many dressed up, everyone cheering, laughing and getting all the same jokes and awwwing and even crying in other parts was one of the most epic experiences of my life. So much fun. And so much fun to have my sister Belle and brothers Alex and Nick with me.
Also can't wait to see Frozen and Saving Mr. Banks. And Catching Fire. Sheesh. :D

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 24, and had finals on that day. Then I went home and chilled the whole day. And got to talk to Amy. So fun.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?
Bling. Ruffles. Scarves. Sequins. Big jewelry. High heels. Leopard print. Kind of boho/shabby chic.

What kept you sane?
My family. My obsessions. My friends. 

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

This gentleman right here, peoples. Henry Cavill. ;)

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Less stress! :D As always.

What political issue stirred you the most?
Hm. I was so busy I didn't really keep up with that much.

Who did you miss?
There are some friends in my life who have gone in different directions, and while I understand it, it doesn't mean I don't miss them. They made such an impact on my life and I'll always be thankful for that and treasure the memories we had together.

Who was the best new person you met?
I got to know so many of you awesome bloggy readers through blogging, Pinterest, and Facebook! So awesome.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

There are three. :) To keep from taking up too much space, I'm just going to post them. :)

I'm through accepting limits 'cuz someone says they're so,
Some things I cannot change, but till I try, I'll never know.
Too long I've been afraid of losing love I guess I've lost,
Well, if that's love, it comes at much too high a cost!

One thought crystallizes like an icy blast,
I'm never going back - the past is in the past!
Let it go! Let it go!
When I rise like the break of dawn...
Let it go! Let it go!
The perfect girl is gone!
Here I stand in the light of day...
Let the storm rage on!

So much of me is made of what I learned from you,
You'll be with me like a handprint on my heart.
And now whatever way our stories end,
I know you'll have rewritten mine by being my friend.

Five personally significant events of 2013:
I went to college.

I got a job.
I finally auditioned.
I got a sister-in-law-to-be!
I took the plunge and went red! No regrets, I love it. :)

Five things I want to do in 2014:
Get my license, finally.
Meet Amy! :)
Be a bridesmaid in my brother's wedding! :)
Audition for more plays and hopefully get a part.
Get another couple of semesters done. :)
Get back to blogging semi-normally. Not promising anything. ;)

Five people I’d like to know better in 2014:
Hmm. My blog readers! 

Happy New Year, everyone! Thank you all so much for sticking around! I'm so grateful for each and every one of you!

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Ally the Blogger and the Big Announcement

This is Ally. She lives with her family, the Family with the Big White Van. She is a good little blogger (except when it comes to actually blogging on a regular basis), but she is always curious.

One day, someone named Miss Dashwood left a comment on Ally’s blog. Ally was curious. She always liked to find new blogs to read. So she clicked on the link, and it led to a new blog, Yet Another Period Drama Blog. It only took a few posts to figure out that she liked this blogger very much, even if she wasn’t actually the Miss Dashwood. You know, Emma Thompson. :P

Over the next few months, Ally read and read and read Miss Dashwood’s posts, and commented and commented and commented. And Miss Dashwood discovered things like The Scarlet Pimpernel and Les Miserables (kinda thanks to Ally, but she likes to be modest about it :P), which made them even more friendly. And Ally discovered Aaron Tveit and learned to tolerate Jane Austen, quite by accident. And stuff like that.

And then one thing led to another, and Miss Dashwood asked Ally if she would like to email her. Ally was curious. This could be the beginning of a beautiful friendship. Or Miss Dashwood could discover that she really was completely crazy. Should she do it? Yes, she did.

And she discovered how awesome Miss Dashwood was. She was witty, she was sweet, and she knew as many movie/musical references as Ally did. And her name was actually Amy. Over many, many, many emails and many, many, many phone calls they became even better friends, and best of all, Ally discovered that contrary to what she had always thought, you don’t have to see eye-to-eye on everything (Jane Austen, cough) to be besties. But a mutual adoration of certain blonde singers doesn’t hurt, either. Ahem.

Which all led to Ally thinking about broaching the subject of visiting. Ally was curious. Would Amy want to break the illusion of online friendship and meet in person?

Yes, she did.


Alllllllllllll that to say, after months of talking and talking and thinking and planning, we are ACTUALLY MEETING in February!!! I anticipate a week of incredibleness, let me tell you. We have so much planned, and late nights are pretty much guaranteed (because how is it a sleepover without late nights?!). Also much giggling and fangirling over People, I’m sure. And singing, lots of singing. And I plan to introduce her to a few of my favorite films that she has not yet had the pleasure of enjoying, and she is introducing us to a few really awesome games. At least that’s the plan. Also expect her to come back understanding allllllllllll the Sherlock references. Just sayin’. ;)

And to say that I’m excited is, really, a complete understatement. Seriously, Amy has been such a wonderful friend, coming into my life just when the Lord knew that I needed a shot in the arm, needed a reminder that there are people who will be your friend without judging you, and like you just the way you are. I’m so grateful for her, and so, so, so, so, so, so, SO thrilled to be meeting in person!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! J I’m sure we’ll try and get a post (or a vlog? And everyone says, um, when you haven’t even finished posting your vlogs from EIGHT FREAKING MONTHS AGO, ALLY?!) up. And lots of pictures and stuff coming forthwith and forsooth and so on. And read her announcement...because IMO, it is much wittier and more hilarious than mine. Because she is cool like that. Also because it is loaded with Certain Singer Pictures and GIFs. Because that's just how she rolls, peoples. Like, totally awesome in all areas and that right verily. 

So that’s my news! Also I’ve had a hectic but awesome last few months…Thanksgiving was incredible, we had an awesome Christmas party, and I’ve been frantically Christmas shopping. Also for the girls’ Christmas present, we’re all going to see Beauty and the Beast tomorrow! CANNOT. WAIT. And then I’m going with a friend to see a local production of A Christmas Carol – a yearly tradition for moi – this weekend. And then try to find sometime to see Frozen (ADORE “Let It Go”!!!!) and Catching Fire before Christmas, hopefully. Sheeeeeeeshes. :D

If I don’t make it back on here before Christmas (which, I know, is highly likely)…Merry Christmas! Hope your holidays are going amazing! J

Monday, October 21, 2013

Interview on Story Girl and Happy Tveitertot Day

So I've been interviewed today on Hayden's blog, Story Girl! She not only has an absolutely delicious blog, but she's a very dear bloggy friend and fellow Leaguette, and I was honored to be a part of her Stay-at-Home Daughters series! Hop over and take a peek...and say hello! :)

Also it's Aaron Tveit's birthday...woooot! I spent the day in court waiting to find out it I was going to have to do jury duty (I didn't...after eleven hours of waiting ;)), but I'm definitely going to be OD'ing on some of my favorites tonight! Here's one for you to enjoy...

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

So Much of Me Is Made of What I've Learned From You...Friendship in Wicked

Well, I saw Wicked.

And it was every bit as amazing as I had anticipated. It was so awesome, I'm going to see it again next week. :)

Review coming (and if you didn't rolled your eyes at how many times I've said this and haven't delivered, you're a saint)...but for now I'm elaborating on the point that stuck out to me while viewing this.

Wicked was all about two things. The first was standing alone for what was right. It was what attracted me to the musical in the first place during a time when I identified with Elphaba's struggle, being villainized when she was just trying to do the right thing. It's what has made it one of my favorites as I've seen this happen to people I love over and over again. The line in "Defying Gravity" was the echo of my heart over and over again in the past few years - "Too long I've been afraid of losing love I guess I've lost...well, if that's love, it comes at much too high a cost!"

I love Elphaba because of it. I love her spirit and her maverick streak. I love her stand for what's right, her disregard for tradition "'cuz someone says they're so", and the way she is such a commotion.

But that doesn't mean that standing alone doesn't hurt. And that is the other theme, that just because love can come at much too high a cost, just because flying free is worth flying solo, it doesn't mean that losing those people doesn't hurt. It's realistic. And no matter whether or not a friendship has a happy ending, it stays with you forever.

Elphaba and Galinda's friendship is the crux of the story and frankly, the most important part of it. Elphaba has her romance with Fiyero and her own journey to go through, but it's the impact that her friendship has on her life and the impact she has on Galinda that is the focus of the story.

And I get that, too. Because I've had friendships like that.

I've had friendships blossom out of the funniest places. I've had friends who were the polar opposite of who I was. I've had those friends who were the closest people in my life, people that I never dreamed would ever *not* be my closest friends.

And then life happened. Some friends moved on to different seasons. Some just lost touch. And yes, some were painful separations over doctrine or misunderstandings or just the most stupid things - and some were even from making the right choices and standing alone. And it does hurt. It does hurt waking up one day and realizing that you don't even know them anymore. To look back over the days when you were so close and try to figure out exactly what happened. To try and find somewhere to lay the blame. To wonder how you could have ever trusted them, or believe that they ever really cared about you.

But that's not the answer. Glinda and Elphaba go from being best friends to at-your-throat enemies, and it's almost painful to see how this friendship has changed, and how much they're each hurting. But towards the end of the last act, when Elphaba is facing her death and asking Glinda to take her place, the friends finally wake up and realize just what this friendship has meant to them, no matter if it didn't play out the way they thought. The gorgeous song "For Good" so perfectly captures the emotions of everyone who has ever had someone close in their life, who can look back, look past all the hurt and see how much of an impact that person had on their life. I'm not going to lie, I tear up every stinkin' time I hear this song, because it really is how I feel about the friendships in my life.

I've heard it said that people come into our lives
For a reason, bringing something we must learn.
And we are lead to those who help us most to grow
If we let them, and we help them in return.
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true,
But I know I'm who I am today because I knew you.

The person I am today is shaped in a huge part by the people I have been honored to call my friends. The people who stood by me, laughed with me, cried with me, and who played a part in creating me. We may not all see eye-to-eye anymore...or even speak to each other now. But if it weren't for the circumstances I have been through with them, I might not be me. For that, I am so thankful. 

It well may be that we will never meet again 
In this lifetime, so let me say before we part - 
So much of me is made of what I've learned from you,
You'll be with me, like a handprint on my heart.
And now whatever way our stories end,
I know you have rewritten mine by being my friend.

And basically, I wouldn't trade those friendships for anything. I wouldn't trade all those wonderful memories, the laughs and the tears and the inside jokes, for any pain that those friendships might have brought. The fact is, underneath the hurt, I still deeply care about each and every one of them. Underneath everything, Elphaba and Glinda still loved each other. They were able to reconcile at last, despite their differences and the past. Unfortunately that won't always be the case for friendships. But you can still reconcile the past with yourself. You can acknowledge that you have been "changed for the better" by the friends you've known. My friendships in the past, both those who have lasted and those that haven't, have taught me so much. Most of all, they've taught me how to love. They've taught me to be unconditionally loving to others, just like I want them to be to me. They've taught me to feel. And I'm so grateful for that. 

So if you have friends in your life you're grateful for, let them know. If you've lost friendships to misunderstandings or seasons in life or even for standing alone, allow yourself to look past the hurt and acknowledge the positive impact they've had on your life. And to all of my friends, those who are in my life and those who have been, thank you for your friendship. I love you, and no matter how our stories end, I will always love you. I couldn't possibly sum it up better than Elphie and Glinda did themselves...

Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better.
And because I knew you,
I have been changed for good.

Wednesday, October 9, 2013